I bought that bikini top.
I wore that bikini top.
BEST DAY EVER.
I felt comfortable and confident. No one was looking or making fun. They were all buys living their own lives to notice that a chubby chick was wearing a two piece bathing suit. We hold ourselves back. And that's just silly.
I don't have a problem with my confidence (*most days---even the most positive people can have an off day every now and then). So please don't mistake the rest of this post as me complaining about gaining weight because it makes me LOOK different. That is not my intention. My quam with my recent gain is because it has made me FEEL different.
In the last week I have put on 9 pounds.
NINE POUNDS.
in a week.
How do you even gain 9 pounds in a week? Something's off. I don't know how or why or what is going on. My body feels heavy. Bloated. Hungry but Nauseated. Tired. My brain is even fuzzy and I have had a lot of headaches. (and no...I'm not pregnant.)
I am hoping that going back to work this week will help something. I don't know what it would be helping, but maybe? All I know is that something's gotta give.
