Thursday, September 12, 2013

two little pieces of toast

it may seem silly, but I eat 2 pieces of high fiber toast with butter and cinnamon/sugar on top EVERY morning before work.

oddly, those two tiny pieces of dried up bread carry me through my morning til lunch.  today, I am not getting my toast because I am having a fasting blood draw done at 7:45 am. 

I just don't know if I will make it.

I am on edge.  I am shaky.
I am a HUNGRY GIRL WHO NEEDS HER TOAST.

just two little pieces of toast.  I mean really, is that too much to ask?

You can't toast toast then eat it later, either.
You have to eat it warm.
ESPECIALLY with the butter and sugar.

wow, who knew that something so insignificant could throw off an entire start to a day.
two silly pieces of bread.
a little butter.
delicious cinnamon.

Just breathe and move on.
Just breathe and focus.
Just breathe.

It's just toast.

....maybe I can bring my toaster to work with me?!?! :)



Friday, September 6, 2013

Holding strong

176 is my new normal.

I appreciate it.
I am confused by it.
I am starting to "feel it"

Once you lose weight, at first you are just impressed at how your clothes begin to fit you. Your pants are typically the most accurate measure of how much weight/inches you have lost.

Some are just right.
Some turn into "pull ups", you know, when you have to pull up your pants after after third step.
Some are sooooo close to fitting but you're just not quite there yet (*but you still try them on at least once a week JUST in case something has changed).
And then there are some pants that remind you that although you have made progress, they still pinch around your middle by the end of the day.

I wore a pair of shorts this week that reminded me that although I can be proud that I have lost 20 pounds since January, I haven't completely lost everything I need.  I looked at those love handles as a reminder that even though I am not "dieting" just eating real food with good portion sizes, perhaps I can throw in a few more vegetables, salads, or fruit.  What can it hurt? 

I want to try putting fruit on the table at dinner time.
I want to make 3 vegetables with the main dish instead of just one or two.
I want to make homemade applebutter....but that's a different story.

This is do-able.
This is real eating.
Real Life.
Slowly but surely.