holy cow!!!

Yeah...thats my number today. Some would still be horrified to see this bright red number flashing back at you. I am ecstatic. This is 3 pounds down since last week.

Hot dog!!!

I will take it. :)

Back to school (and I have been bad...)

Since going back into my classroom just two short weeks ago, my husband and I have eaten more fast food for dinner than we have allll summer. 

CONFESSION: 
I have had pizza, chicken nuggets, fries, a quarter pounder WITH cheese, a red robin turkey burger with steak fries, Mongolian with noodles, doritos, ice cream cones (yes, plural), cake....
well I mean I didn't eat this all in one day but you get the picture. I have been bad. 

CELEBRATION!!!!
I still weigh in at 179!!!  I don't really understand the science behind this phenomenon but WOO-HOO! 

I think I would like to credit my awesome breakfast routine (fiber toast, egg whites, canadian bacon) in the morning and the consumption of a yogurt each day.  I have been monitoring my breakfast and lunch more carefully because I was preparing myself for these "off limits" dinners. I also heard on Dr. OZ one day that when you take Vitamin D and Calcium supplements together OR eat one container of yogurt (it has vitamin D and calcium!) you create a natural fat burner.  Maybe, just maybe that has been helping.  AND maybe some credit to that big salad I have with my burgers and pizza instead of fries and garlic bread.

Whatever it may be, I have not been going totally crazy with the crappy food, but I can fully appreciate the balance of what I am doing.

...even though I probably could be moving a little bit more.

choices

I have officially hit the 179 marker. 
Still big, but still proud =)

I am more proud of the fact that I have overcome my old ways when facing adversity.  This week I have: gone back to my classroom to work, sat through an overwhelming workshop, and I had a "lady appt" at the dr (you know what I'm talking about....yeah...that.) and by the time I got out of there on Thursday, I was about at my limit of anxiety for the week. After the appt, I went to Walmart to kill some time before having lunch with my husband.  Do you know what items do they sell at Walmart?

CHIPS.
CHOCOLATE.
DIET COKE.

I reached for it all, but put it all back.
now, for most of you that's not a big deal.

If it's not a big deal for you then you do not use food as an emotional blankie, so to speak.
If you do think it's a big deal then you will understand that I just overcame my worst and oldest habit of reaching for food to comfort and console my anxiety/stress.  (*I reached for that clearance rack dress instead! Just FYI, I have a really nice closet after this summer!)

If I would have caved and ate that bag of chips or candy bar, I would have successfully opened the flood gates to commence using the "eating crutch" whenever I felt that way.  I would have eaten the "treat" quickly and secretly.  I would have then berated myself for doing it there by starting the frenzy that would have spiraled out of control.  One bag of chips and any work I have done this summer would have been completely shot out of the water.

and you may think I am overreacting, but I am not.
just one little bag.
just one little candy bar.
just one little choice.

 It's never just one little choice.  Every choice is a big choice.
you just don't realize it at the time.