FAT PANTS

My fat pants don't fit anymore.  My FAT PANTS.  The pants I specifically bought for fat days when I was too bloated to fit into my other clothes.  The clothes I haven't been able to wear for almost a year now.  I have jeans stored in the closet that used to fit like a dream and make my butt look awesome.  However, since the climb of the scale, I have been having to wear sweaters or maternity type shirts to hide my muffin tops.  You read me right.  Muffin TOPS.  I have a double layer muffin top.  I have my belly muffin, and my bra back muffin.  I suppose the back fat is just the cherry on top.

I still diet in the mornings and when I am at school.  I eat healthy choices, I consider my calories.  Then I get home from work and all heck breaks loose.   Dinner time unleashes delicious unhealthy horse sized portions of food.  Sure we eat salad and vegetables, but that is typically negated by the three servings of tacos, pasta, pizza, etc.  Of course there is also the after dinner snack (which typically leads to another snack of course).

So with that said, I give up.  I can't do it alone.  I need help.

I have decided (depending upon the cost) I am going to enlist the help of a personal trainer.  Not for an extended time, but for a few sessions just to get me headed in the right direction and provide that motivation I need to get to the gym and keep going back.  Historically speaking, once I started going to the gym and seeing results, I altered my eating and my willpower increased because I didn't want to undo all of my hard work just for a cookie or canister of chips.

So lets hope Anytime Fitness will show mercy on my poor chunky monkey soul and bestow upon me the good news of a reasonable price for a trainer.

Stressed and Fat

I have been fairly (and by fairly I mean REALLY) stressed with my work environment for the last year...or more.  Other things have contributed to my stress, but I think it's my every day work place that causes the most anxiety and stress in my thoughts, worries.  I have noticed since I have been more stressed in my workplace I have slowly but surely added on close to 40 pounds.   I eat a lot, I will admit that, but overall I don't eat that terribly and what I eat is usually "good" foods (vegetables, yogurt, fruits).   So this leads me to believe there is a real reason why I can't lose weight easily and can't seem to control my self.  SOOOO, I googled and learned something interesting.


Chronic stress and cortisol can contribute to weight gain in the following ways:

Metabolism -- Do you feel like you're prone to putting on more weight when you're stressed, even if you're eating the same amount of food as you always have? Too much cortisol can slow your metabolism, causing more weight gain than you would normally experience. This also makes dieting more difficult. Cravings -- OK, you're stressed. Do you reach for a nice salad or a pint of Ben & Jerry's? I'll bet on the latter. People experiencing chronic stress tend to crave more fatty, salty and sugary foods. This includes sweets, processed food and other things that aren’t as good for you. These foods are typically less healthy and lead to increased weight gain. Blood Sugar -- Prolonged stress can alter your blood sugar levels, causing mood swings, fatigue, and conditions like hyperglycemia. Too much stress has even been linked to metabolic syndrome, a cluster of health concerns that can lead to greater health problems, like heart attacks and diabetes. Fat Storage -- Excessive stress even affects where we tend to store fat. Higher levels of stress are linked to greater levels of abdominal fat. Unfortunately, abdominal fat is not only aesthetically undesirable, it’s linked with greater health risks than fat stored in other areas of the body.

Stress and weight gain are connected in other ways:

Emotional Eating -- Increased levels of cortisol can not only make you crave unhealthy food, but excess nervous energy can often cause you to eat more than you normally would. How many times have you found yourself scouring the kitchen for a snack, or absently munching on junk food when you’re stressed, but not really hungry?

Motivation for Sale

I am wondering if anyone has some motivation for sale?   I am looking for a moderate amount.  I am willing to pay up to $75-100 if the supply seems to be of good quality.   If you or anyone you know has motivation for sale, please contact me @

Miss Christy
123 Dieting Failure Drive
Hungry, MO 

Life is more important than Chips and Chocolate

I like the way food comforts me.  It keeps me entertained when there is no one around and nothing to pass the time.   I think about how food will taste and then get fixated on it to the point of total obsession and concentration.  I can try to function like a normal person, but in the back of my mind I am still thinking about what I am going to eat next.  Usually I wait til no one is around or not really paying close attention and then it happens. 

I will eat an orange and feel proud that I am staying "on track."   The orange tastes so good.  Then I decide an orange was a good choice and I have room left in my calories for something more, so I choose some yogurt.  The yogurt turns into vegetables which turns into salsa which turns into chips which turns into soda which turns into chocolate which turns into...I think you see where this is going.

THEN the best part is: I don't acknowledge this happens.  I log in to my calorie counter and log only the choices that were decent in my day.  Even those choices are WAY above my allotted calorie intake for the day.  So to smooth over my feelings of failure and disappointment I of course head to the kitchen to find my next remedy of comfort which typically manifests itself as a canister of chips.


I love chips.  But I also love my life and quite frankly for a young person I am not healthy.  Life is more important than chips and chocolate.

Food and Fitness Journal

I have been logging my daily intake of food.  I have been honest about what I have been eating and how much.  The calorie counter adds up how much I have consumed for the day and it tells you how many calories you have left for the day or how many you went over.  I thought I had been doing very well.  I have been doing well through the day with lowfat everything and cutting down in general.  My calorie counter said I was under my daily allotment of calories.  Then I noticed something key in this diet gig.  To lose weight, I need to be consuming 1500 calories.   I have been consuming around 2000.  Better than usual, but disappointingly not helpful to my little attempt of weight loss.

I have adjusted the counter and my pride has been knocked down a notch or two.  I will work harder to do what I can to make the numbers go down, but when you start breaking your food down into parts you realize just how much goes into your body.

Hopefully I will soon return to the gym.  I have basically been a financial backer for the gym instead of a member.  Just paying my dues each month and never stepping foot inside.  My goal is to step back inside SOON. 

Calorie Counting

I did my calorie counting all day.  I had a granola bar for breakfast, my turkey and cheese at lunch, and strawberry applesauce for dessert.  We went for a walk after work.  It was a great day!

...Then we went out for dinner.  So all of my hard work and staying on track was demolished when I indulged and got the "#1" which comprised of a hard taco, a chalupa, AND an enchilada.   There was so much meat and deep fried everything. 

It was delicious--don't get me wrong!

It was just a shame that instead of having some type of self control, I willingly (and excitedly) ate every last crumb of food.. 

...at least I didn't lick the plate. =)

A 6" Sub and a George Foreman Grill

After my honey bun slip up yesterday morning, the day went relatively well.  My boyfriend and I even went for a walk before dinner, which was salad and homemade pizza with extra veggies.  This morning started better.  Light Yogurt and a granola bar.  As the day progressed, I didn't even think about what I could find to snack on that wasn't tacked down to devour.  I felt good about my day.  Then we went to subway for dinner.

After eating my 6" sub and small cup of chili, I realized that those subway commercials are a LIE!  My sandwich was 3Xsmaller than the pumped up media version.  2 seconds after completing my sandwich and soup I felt HUNGER.  I paid $4.50 for HUNGER!!!!!!!!!  Fool me once shame on you.  Fool me twice...well you won't fool me twice, Subway.  NEVER AGAIN! 

On the bright side, we bought a George Foreman Grill!  Hopefully we can make delicious food at home and stop sinking our hard earned dollars on tiny sandwiches that leave you feeling hungry within minutes. 

Day 1: Actual attempt to start eating differently

My goal was to start eating right.  I have turkey and vegetables packed in my lunch box.  I have applesauce and 90 calorie granola bars for snack.  So I ate a honey bun for breakfast. =)

It's a process right?  baby steps.  One day at a time.  All those cliche' phrases that make you feel better.

Let's see what the day brings.

Dieting Tip for the Day

Use superglue instead of lip gloss.

Nutri-Slim-Weight-Craig

Television commercials can give you so much hope.  Hope that "you too can lose weight!"  Then I think about the food that it takes to be successful in these programs.  How on earth are those diets practical? 

You drink your lunch. mmm...Delicious. 

You purchase dinners that taste like cardboard.   mmm...expensive.

You have to continually count the "points" that your food is worth.  mmm...math.

Congratulations to those who have lost weight on these systems.  However, there is no miracle weight loss system that will keep you thin for life.  I have considered dieting options.  I have also considered that eventually I will need to eat real food again.  Not just baked fish and broccoli, but REAL food.  I will eat more than one piece of cake.  I will eat one Pringle then another and another.  Thats something those diet plans don't account for.  All the slip ups and bad days.

What I need is to move.  Dance, walk, go to the gym, play Wii, whatever it takes to get my tush off the cushy couch cushions.  The only real way to make your body lose weight is to get busy and move.

...now where do you find motivation?