Avoidance

Recently, there has been a big absence of blogs on my part.

Mostly because somehow I was able to pack on enough weight to shame me into silence.  Between my constant hunger and a total lack of control (*which I am pretty famous for) I was able to chomp my way back to 185 pounds.  How I can gain almost 10 pounds in a week is beyond any comprehensible process that I can understand.

Sometimes I feel like there is something in my body and just holds onto the pounds. 
I have a theory, if you'd like to hear it.

See I have this idea that there is a skinny girl inside of me but she is not screaming to get out. 
In fact, my inner skinny girl really likes junk food, so she doesn't want to give up the outer fat girl because if she did, she would have to sacrifice all her cravings to maintain her killer body.

So, it's really not my fault.  I blame her.
the skinny *!#(% won't let go!!!!!!!


On a more serious note...I am not so delusional that I think I can really blame others for my problems. 
I am and always will be my own worst enemy when it comes to battling food addiction.


So I will start this week much like I have started many other weeks. 
I start this week with good intentions and then we go from there.