Heidi Montag

My momma always said, if you don't have anything nice to say--don't say anything.

So that explains the break in blogging. 
I honestly had nothing but complaints and nagging to express.

I have officially been on weight watchers one full week.  I have lost two pounds.  Barely.

I have vigorously counted points.  I have been strategically planning food consumption to make the most of what I can have.  It's really not that hard.  Portion size is by far the most difficult part. 

...then again I am lucky that I actually like the taste of  vegetables. 

My total downfall is exercise.  We went to the gym one day out of the seven.  I went 4.5 miles on the bike and .5 on the treadmill to wrap it up. 

***Literally as I am typing about my lack of physical exercise, Good Morning America is announcing that there are people who exercise too much.  Heidi Montag exercises 14 hours per DAY!!!!!  I was exhausted after 30 minutes.   I would also like to add in at this moment that I in no way shape or form want to look like Heidi Montag nor look to her as a role model of physical fitness.  It was just ironic that as I claim that lack of exercise is my burden, other people may have the burden of being obsessed with exercise and a need to be thin.

While on the topic of Heidi Montag and her obsession with looks and weight lets get some things straight about me. 
--I will never be 110 pounds with a rockin hot bod.  It's not my body type and quite frankly I love food way too much and love sitting way too much. 
--I will always struggle with my weight. 
--I will go through phases where it bothers me more than others. 
--I will unfortunately become obsessed with the topic of weight loss when I am going through one of these phases.  Regardless if I am actually successful at it or not.
--I will always choose a cupcake over a carrot.
--I will always think I am pretty, even when I am fat.
--I will always be harsher on myself because I know I can do better.

With all that said, I will continue my day trying to do better than I have done the day before. 
...counting my points.  telling myself I need to get up and do something.
....while continuing to sit and contemplate what I should do. 
....and most likely end up sitting to work on wedding stuff. 
...even though mockingly, the wedding is the reason why I should be up and out and doing something.