Don't get me wrong: I'm pretty

I'm not gonna lie.  I don't see myself as a "Fat chick."

Chubby, yes.

Fluffier than most?  You betcha.

THEN something happens that takes your frame of mind and boggles it. 

While I should be celebrating how killer awesome we look (**like I did in the other 700 pictures!) I can't help but focusing on these two things.  These two things consume me.  These two things have made me realize that I have the classic signatures of a true fat girl. 
**I have the big flabby chicken wing arms with the crease that goes all the way across at the elbow. 
**I have the wide thighs and excess skin around the knees when my legs aren't extended. 
**I am way thicker across my mid-section than I feel.

None of these things I have noticed until these pictures came about.  I have taken on a whole new outlook on what I need to be doing to shape my body.  I am refocusing.  Up till this point I have been solely concentrating on burning the fat with cardio. Tonight we went into the gym and we integrated weights into our workout.  

...and I'm talkin about the 7 pound dumbbells. 
Yeah, I'm hardcore like that.

In other AWESOME news...
--my gym owner is awesome.  He was helpful, excited, and encouraging when he learned of our wedding news.  He isn't judgmental about your size, but he doesn't sugar coat the facts.   That's refreshing.

--My handsome hubby-to-be is SUPER awesome.  Not only does he accompany me to the gym and support me in my weight watchers lifestyle, he has even said he wants to do it with me.  He is going to be there for me every way he can, and that means the world to a starving girl.  He also got competitive with me in the gym today.  It was cool to add that element into our workout.  We pushed ourselves harder by trying to keep up with one another.  In a nut shell, he's awesome.

--Less awesome news---
I haven't lost another stinkin pound. not even one silly little pound. 
...but I won't stop trying.