Commitment.

Commitment.

I do not have a fear of commitment.  In fact, I would think that I am mainly a commitment freak.

I decided to go to college I made sure I was there to graduate...and did.

I accepted a job in special education and stuck to the job *regardless of how scared I was* and it turned out to be the best job ever.


I moved in with my boyfriend (now husband) after 2 months of dating because I was already that committed.

I married that man, and I am committed for life to him.


But apparently, this "commitment" thing is a difficult task for me to accomplish when it comes to buckling down and letting this "healthy lifestyle" thing happen.

After telling myself it was time for a change I think my brain has gone into an overlaod.  "MUST EAT MORE FOOD" has been my mission when no one is around.  Like there is some cutoff date to which I will no longer be allowed to eat.  Or perhaps there is a food shortage and I must stock up like a chipmunk for a long winter?

Regardless, I am certain that foods like Steak burritos from Chipotle and multiple pieces of fried chicken from KFC, are not the best options to JUMP START a food turn around.  Not saying that I give up, but just curious as to why I secretly sabotage my attempt to commit to something that is GOOD for me. 

Maybe I can give posters to fast food places saying *Don't give this girl food* with my picture on it. 
...Just to be safe.

All I can do is just keep trying. :)