Life is more important than Chips and Chocolate

I like the way food comforts me.  It keeps me entertained when there is no one around and nothing to pass the time.   I think about how food will taste and then get fixated on it to the point of total obsession and concentration.  I can try to function like a normal person, but in the back of my mind I am still thinking about what I am going to eat next.  Usually I wait til no one is around or not really paying close attention and then it happens. 

I will eat an orange and feel proud that I am staying "on track."   The orange tastes so good.  Then I decide an orange was a good choice and I have room left in my calories for something more, so I choose some yogurt.  The yogurt turns into vegetables which turns into salsa which turns into chips which turns into soda which turns into chocolate which turns into...I think you see where this is going.

THEN the best part is: I don't acknowledge this happens.  I log in to my calorie counter and log only the choices that were decent in my day.  Even those choices are WAY above my allotted calorie intake for the day.  So to smooth over my feelings of failure and disappointment I of course head to the kitchen to find my next remedy of comfort which typically manifests itself as a canister of chips.


I love chips.  But I also love my life and quite frankly for a young person I am not healthy.  Life is more important than chips and chocolate.